A reader writes: I am married and the mother of three children. I have been told by my doctors that I have a rare and terminal illness. My husband and children love me and need me, and they do not know that I am dying because I cannot tell them. How can I tell the ones who count on me that I won’t be here for them? How can I tell them that I brought them into the world with love and tears, and now I’m leaving? My husband and children don’t know. I won’t let them know.
Why should they feel this? I never lied to them. I didn’t want to share this with them because I am not strong enough to deal with their grief. I feel their love. I need it and it gives me strength. But just as I spent a lifetime helping and hand-holding, I can’t let go of my love for them or my responsibility to them long enough to let them grieve. I know I am being selfish. But I am dying. Please believe me when I say that I don’t want to leave. I want to see my grandchildren born, I want to see my youngest graduate from college, I want to hold the one I raised who grew up, left home and sent me emails and letters the whole time she has been gone. I love my family and would do anything to keep them from this pain. I know the pain. I have tried to keep it from them out of love. I don’t want my children or my husband to see or feel this pain. Read on here >>>
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